Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Monday, October 25, 2010
I need to revamp my Kirsy's Creations blogger page but having a hard time finding an affordable option for someone to design it for me. And by affordable I do mean cheap. Extremely cheap. Oh how I wish I had the aptitude for things like web design.
I'm very excited to start scrapbooking again. I put away most of my jewelry supplies and made room on the table so I can get some pages done. I think it has been 2 years since I did it last. I searched high and low for a 8x8 book for the Bub's first year. It was hard but I found one that could hold 52 pages. I want to do a page a week of her for the first year. I have the pictures (well they are on the computer, I still need to get them printed), I have the motivation...now I just need time.
Well as usual a certain 20 month old is in need of my attention. Happy Monday!
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Friday, October 22, 2010
Friday, October 15, 2010
Thursday, October 14, 2010
The medication seems to be agreeing with me aside from occassionally feeling sleepy when I first take it. The only other issue I have had is I am lightheaded when I first get up from laying down sometimes so I have to be really careful. I caught myself on the TV stand the other day.
One other positive of the medication is I am no longer taking my sleeping pills and have been able to sleep. Not tonight unfortunately because I am nervous about my dentist appointment in the morning but every other night. This is HUGE as I have been taking sleeping pills for years.
The day I was in the hospital the doctor and nurse both told me I should try to avoid stress. The next day I managed to break a tooth and my daughter fell down outside and scrapped her nose terribly. I was a wreck. So much for avoiding stress.
What I am having a hard time coming to terms with is the possibility that I won't be able to have another child. Right now it is up in the air and we are taking things one step at a time before it is ruled safe or not. I'll put it right out there for you, I put off going to the cardiologist for too long mainly out of fear (stupid I know). I had three main fears:
1) I would have something wrong with my heart and need surgery. Thankfully at this point it looks as though that can be avoided.
2) They wouldn't find anything wrong and I would continue to feel miserable on a daily basis. Once again thankfully something did happen and they were able to diagnose me and give me meds.
3) They would tell me it would be unsafe to go through another pregnancy. Sadly right now we just don't know.
Part of me thinks that regardless of what the doctor says we should completely put the idea out of our minds. I'm scared. But then I think about not getting to experience a child growing inside me again and I get sad. Never feeling those amazing flutters no one else can feel as he/she grows. No more kicks from inside my belly. No huge round belly to hold as I sit or lay down.
And then I remember the moment I held my daughter in my arms for the first time and I get teary. I want to feel that again.
But at what cost?
I don't know what triggered my PSVT. But I can tell you I never had it until after I gave birth to my daughter. What if even with close monitoring my condition got worse? And I needed an ablation (which even though it may be a low risk procedure) I don't want to have to do.
So right now I am thinking as though we will not be having another child. Preparing myself for the worst. And if I am told otherwise, which I most likely will be from reading other stories, I can make a choice. What I can't handle is thinking that everything will be fine and having the wind knocked out of me when the doctor tells me otherwise.
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Naturally I went directly to the manufacturer's site. Love It!
I love the idea of a non-toxic nailpolish for my daughter. She loves when I have polish on my toes and I think she would squeal with excitement if her piggies were to be painted.
Just as I "liked" the Facebook page I saw a link to a giveaway. :drool:
I am posting this info to not only share the information about the giveaway but I get 3 entries for it :)
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
I joined a Blog Hop from this and this site. If you stop by from either site leave me a comment so I know to visit you back.
I'm exhausted today. I don't know if it is the medicine or just day to day life. All I know is I need a nap.
Saturday, October 9, 2010
I hope your weekend is starting off more exciting than mine. After the Bub wakes up from her nap and Hubby is back from his bike ride we are off to lunch at a Polish restaurant!
I forgot to stamp my posts with the date lately...grrr. I totally lost count of my xx/365 posts.
Friday, October 8, 2010
what am I going to get into next Mama?
Thursday, October 7, 2010
On the way to the doctor's office I was having what I consider mild heart palpitations. I checked in and waited to see the nurse. When I saw her I told her I was having palpitations right then so she hooked me up to the machine immediately. She unhooked me and the doctor came in and he asked if I drove myself to which I answered no, my husband drove me. He said to have him come in. I said no it's okay he is out in the waiting room with our daughter. Then he says oh she can come in too and I still say no it's okay I don't need them in here. He says well you aren't staying here I am sending you to the ER. Boy, Am I thick!
While the doctor was explaining what was going on with me, I was having a heart arrhythmia, I was a bit emotional. I tried not to cry but I knew a few tears escaped despite me trying to hold it back. So off we went - Do Not Pass Go, Do Not Collect $200, Go Directly to the ER.
When we got to the hospital the doctor was actually waiting for us as the nurse pushed my wheelchair down the hall. I got changed into a hospital gown and then a team of nurses got busy hooking this and that up to me. My heart rate had reached 237 at the height of things, it had been 193 at the cardiologist. The doctor explained the medicine he was giving me would make me feel very weird and uncomfortable but only for a few seconds. They gave me the Adenosine and within a moment I felt a funky warm sensation across my body, primarily my chest. The one nurse was holding my hand and someone was saying just another second. Just like that my heart rate slowed down and in minutes I felt "normal".
Hubby and the Bub stayed in the room with me for a while. I had the Bub on my lap in the hospital bed while she watched Dora with me for a few minutes. Then they left cause I was going to be in there a couple of hours being observed.
I watched bad court TV, gave urine for a pregnancy test, had a chest X-Ray, had an adorable doctor come into my room by mistake and chatted with my nurse about our dogs (her labs and my yorkie and chi.).
Next thing I know the doctor tending to me comes into the room and says I'm good to go home once they get my meds. The nurse comes in again and tells me to avoid stress (ha, how is that going to happen I have a 19 month old, 2 little dogs, a husband and work with my parents!) and gives me Potassium since the bloodwork shows it's low.
A yellow paper is handed to me and I finally have an answer. I know what is wrong with me. Tachycardia, Paroxysmal supraventricular tachycardia (PSVT) to be exact. I was so relieved that I had an answer I actually said to the nurse, "So this it what's wrong with me?". lol.
While I was waiting for Hubby to get to the hospital I spoke to both the nurse and doctor again. I also got my first dose of medication, Diltiazem ER along with a one month prescription.
So I guess now I wait, go for my follow up visit in two weeks and see what happens. I am hopeful that this will be it and I can move on with a normal life. I have felt so off for the last year and a half I don't even know how I am supposed to feel. Last night I was over analyzing everything I felt. But I was able to get some sleep.
Adding to our family is going to have to wait a bit. We need to see if this can be controlled and if that is something we can safely do down the road. For now I just want to enjoy my family and day to day life while not feeling sick.
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
I've had problems since May of last year. After blood tests, Echocardiogram and brain MRI I was told there was nothing wrong. So I just accepted that I was going to feel terrible on a near daily basis. The heart palpitations were like none I ever had before, I thought I was going to die. I get extremely hot and my heart pounds like it is trying to get out of my chest. Then this past August it was getting worse, to the point I was getting afraid to drive because I was nervous I would have an episode while behind the wheel. The last straw was when I was getting ready to help with dinner and I nearly passed out in the kitchen.
It took a month to get this appointment. I hate doctors. I just do. And there is nothing I can do to make myself feel better.
I really hope this doctor senses my nerves and is kind and friendly. I also hope he can figure out what the heck is wrong with me. I'm tired of feeling sick so often.
Fingers crossed and praying that we find answers and it is something that can be fixed easily.