Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Tick tock tick tock...

My oh my where has the time gone?

I can't remember the last time I posted something on here or even wrote something private for myself.

Tomorrow morning is my surgery. My ablation is scheduled for 10:00 am. The Bub is staying with Grammie so I know she is in great loving hands.

I don't deal with death and dying well. I just don't. I know it is part of life and blah blah blah but I can't wrap my mind around the idea of not being there with my daughter to see her grow up.

The 1-2% chance of something going wrong that they can fix I can handle. The .5% chance of me dying can get me worked up in a matter of minutes if I think about it. And unfortunately being the glass half empty kinda girl I let it get to me.

Don't get me wrong - I'm not thrilled with the idea of needing a pacemaker but at least I would be alive.

I've received some wonderful messages from folks and I am so thankful to have them in my life.

Need extra thoughts and prayers for tomorrow and my recovery.

Once I get through this I really need to start blogging more...not to mention reading blogs. And also try to get into a few craft shows for the spring. I also have 100 prints from Snapfish on there way to me.

Positive thoughts...positive thoughts.